A while ago, I wrote that 2020 felt like the hardest year of my life for many reasons. But in 2021, I finally started to recover from the changes and loss I experienced in 2020. In the beginning of 2021, I was still living at home but I was desperately looking for a place to live. I had just started seeing a counsellor regularly and having someone to process 2020 with was slowly healing my broken heart. I remember in Februrary 2021, I wrote a '1 year best possible self' entry in my journal. It's actually crazy to look back and see how almost everything I wrote down, came to pass this year. I found a place to call home with roommates that are friends and I got a permanent teaching position for Grade 6/7 French Immersion. I didn't realize it then, but the simple act of imagining my best possible self a year later, was giving me the space I needed to hope again.
2020 was the year that broke me but 2021 was the year that brought me back. This year I learned to trust my God again. I learned to accept his timing for my life. I learned how deep and wide his love is for me. This year, God began to heal my broken heart. He brought life again into my dry bones. He provided for me in beautiful ways that made me feel seen and heard by him. This year, I learned that none of my tears or prayers are in vain. He sees every tear I shed and every longing of my heart. This year, I learned how good our God is, he is actually the very best thing! I learned how close his presence is and how his love can truly heal all wounds. I'm looking forward to 2022 because I know God will complete the work he started in me. He's not done answering prayers, he's not done healing, he's not done offering his presence. I'm thankful to know a God who walks with me through the darkest and most beautiful days. I'm thankful for a love that can never be taken a way. Despite all the loss and change and transition that came with 2020, God is reminding me once again that he is here with me, he has always been here. May we look ahead to the new year with joyful expectation but may we also never forget that we have everything we need in the One who first loved us. Xoxo, Shana Shaye
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